Jennifer Lopez is recalling a time when she and Ben Affleck weren't feeling so good as a couple.
The singer—who, after getting engaged and splitting from the Oscar winner in the early aughts, rekindled their romance in 2021—is reflecting on the scrutiny around their first relationship, sharing they "both have PTSD."
"But we're older now," she told Variety in an article published Dec. 20. "We're wiser. We also know what's important, what's really important in life, and it's not so much what other people think. It's about being true to who you are."
The 54-year-old is set to explore her "publicly scrutinized love life" in her upcoming This Is Me…Now film. It's a project designed to accompany her first album released in nearly 10 years.
"You have to see it and you'll have to experience it to understand it," she told the publication of her movie. "That's why I call it a ‘musical experience.' Because there's music, you can see it, you can hear it and then you'll get to live it."
And if you're wondering about the possibility of her and Ben being together again onscreen outside of her film, J.Lo—who costarred alongside her now-husband in 2003's Gigli—is into it.
"We love being together and working together," she explained, "so, yeah, you never know."
And it isn't just the film that will explore her personal life, as This Is Me…Now (which serves as a follow up to This Is Me…Then) has several nods to the Air star including songs like "Dear Ben pt. ll."
In fact, the singer credits their reconciliation as the catalyst behind the latest chapter in her life.
"I got very inspired when we got back together," Lopez said on a January episode of Jimmy Kimmel Live!. "It was kind of like a miracle and something that neither one of us really ever thought would happen."
For an even more in-depth look back at their romance, no need to wait for tonight. Keep reading for a glimpse at Ben and Jen's journey to love.
The two prepare to film a scene for the movie in West Hollywood. The couple met on the set of the film.
The two are spotted in the city.
The two film the movie on Will Rogers State Beach in Los Angeles. That month, the actor proposes to the actress with a 6.1-carat pink diamond ring.
The two film the movie in New York City.
Is there anything more '00s than both Bennifer 1.0 and TRL?
The two make their red carpet debut as a couple at the premiere of her film Maid in Manhattan.
The two bundle up at the Sundance Film Festival in Utah.
The two appear at the premiere of Daredevil, starring Ben as the superhero.
The two appear at the premiere of Daredevil, starring Ben and future ex-wife Jennifer Garner.
The two attend the Academy Awards together.
The two sit courtside at a Los Angeles Lakers game.
The two film a Dateline interview for NBC in Vancouver.
The two appear at the premiere for their movie in Westwood, Calif.
...it flops at the box office.
The two postpone their wedding. No future date is given.
The two are seen at a Boston Red Sox game. The team is Ben's favorite.
The two end their engagement.
They're baaaack. On Sept. 10, the couple makes their first red carpet appearance in 18 years at the Venice Film Festival premiere of The Last Duel.
There's no denying J.Lo makes for a stunning plus-one!
Ben supports J.Lo at the 2021 Global Citizen Live event in New York City, where she performed onstage. It marked her first music gig since she performed at VAX LIVE in May, where the actor also appeared onstage separately, fueling rumors of a rekindled romance.
The two attend the Met Gala together for the first time.
Jen and Ben put on a sizzling display on the red carpet at the premiere of his film The Last Duel in New York City.
Jennifer confirmed her engagement to the Gone Girl actor with a video posted to her On The JLo site, revealing a glimpse of her beautiful engagement ring with a green stone.
On July 16, Jennifer and Ben tied the knot in a surprise ceremony at A Little White Wedding Chapel in Las Vegas.
The two vacation with her twins and two of his kids in the French capital soon after their wedding.
June 2023: Red Carpet Fabulous
J.Lo steps out with Ben in support of his movie The Flash.
February 2024: This Is Them...Now
Jennifer release This Is Me... Now, an album about her relationship with Ben. The record is accompanied by a musical film titled This Is Me... Now: A Love Story and the documentary The Greatest Love Story Never Told.